The coolest thing was happening yesterday morning while I was writing these Pages.  Unbeknownst to me, three deer were out back enjoying the corn I’d left the night before.  I didn’t find out until I checked the app later in the day.  Before starting these Morning Pages today, I glanced at the app and . . . nothing yet.  But I don’t think they will show up.  My battery level on the camera suddenly jumped down to 20% from yesterday.  There must have been a lot of activity during the night.

I’ve been really impressed with the trail cam.  I only bought one to test it out.  The app that I use with it is easy to use.  My new rechargeable AA batteries arrived last evening, so now I can switch out the batteries in the trail cam.

Our other critter we feed, besides the birds and squirrels, is a stray kitty we call “Lloyd.”  He’s been sufficiently fed this morning, so now I can stay settled in the chair and keep writing.

Yesterday I realized why I was so tired the day before.  That morning I went through the process of doing a new download of my True Soul Self before moving on to the New World of Love (NWL) activation.  That’s a lot of energy and it takes time for the body to adjust—or maybe the entire Body/Mind complex needs that adjustment time.  So, I made sure not to do that again so as not to overdo it.  

I got a lot accomplished yesterday with relative ease, including the tricky task of installing the new cellular shade in the window over the kitchen sink.  I’m very happy with it.  

I felt, though, that I watched too many YouTube videos while crocheting.  My mind needs a break from those.  

This morning I remembered more about what I was told about being a closed circuit.  It was the opposite of how I’ve been—open and searching.  Am I still searching?  Am I looking for the answers I need from within?  I don’t think I can answer “no” to that latter one.  The reason I say this is because I haven’t been practicing the one thing that really connects me within—and that is doing my Inner Streaming or Garden Home visits.  As I laid eyes on my Soul Symbol set the other day while straightening up, I felt the subtle nudge.  

The thing with living a strictly physical life with no conscious engagement with the less physical levels is that it’s so boring.  It’s like living in a black and white world.  Becoming aware of more beyond the five senses drastically changes the experience of life.  I’m feeling grateful that I can do it.  So, why don’t I?

I really miss my interactions with Sanat.  I haven’t consciously connected with him in a while.  He’s still present, of course; I feel him occasionally.  

New thought:  I could practice being in my Garden Home while completing the crocheting I’m doing for Christmas.  I think I can do it.  It will be like watching SoulTube rather than YouTube.  I also used to think of it as SoulTV.  And I have wanted to do it more often in place of watching TV in the evenings or reading other people’s stories.  Perhaps practicing while crocheting will be a great segue into doing it.  

I’ve often thought that this is how I could practice being a closed circuit.  When I saw my destiny according to Human Design, I felt more certain that I needed to engage frequently in my inner Heart Streaming activities.  Is writing like this an example of that?  At first I wanted to say ‘no,’ but if I place my consciousness in my Garden Home while writing, it would feel more like Heart Streaming.

My Garden Home has had an interesting evolution.  When I first started going to a primary inner sanctuary, I was often just in a house.  One day while visiting, I just realized the four walls just felt confining.  I walked out of the back to the terrace area.  I turned around and the house was gone.  The whole area became like a nature park with amenities.

For a long time I had no buildings—only a gazebo near a pond.  Now there is my Source Temple standing tall.  I can draw a map of where everything is located in my Garden Home.  I’ve called it my Garden Home for a long time.  I consider it a part of the Realms of Love.

I’ve felt and received so many beautiful energies there, sometimes quite powerfully.  And Sanat often visits with me there.  We’ve had many conversations while sitting in various spots or taking walks along the river.  

There have been some significant changes in the space in the past year.  I haven’t given my full “yes” to experiencing that change.  I don’t know why.  I think because it will involve opening myself up to more beings who will be in the connected area.

Well, it’s been a long year.  After losing a kitty, my father and the other kitty, I’ve had to deal with grief.  And shortly after that the whole ‘I don’t have much time left’ thing happened, which completely diverted me.  

But now I think more continual engagement in my Garden Home and visiting the new adjoining Compassion Center will help me do what I came to do on Earth.  I mean, I have a whole Heartweaving Team that I mostly only speak to as a group.  It would be nice to deepen those interactions in my Garden Home.  I’ve had a whole sprawling terrace there for a long time with tables and seating areas.  I could easily have parties there.  Maybe I wouldn’t feel so lonely in this life if I threw a party there occasionally.  

There’s even an outdoor kitchen.  That might seem odd, but I had an experience once of Sanat feeding me a bit fo food and I felt the energy of it in my mouth and move into me.  Other similar things have happened while sipping a mocha there.  

It’s all data streams.  Energy streams of data.  And when I tune into them, my physical body feels the, too.

And that’s what makes it real.